After dinner, Sean begged me to go see cars at the auto mall nearby. I was tired so I wanted to rest at home but Sean begged and begged and begged. I couldn't say no anymore so I went with him. For those who haven't heard, I recently got a driver's license, so we have been looking at cars - mostly used cars - here and there. I am still not sure if we can afford a second car yet but who cares, we can still look, right? So I know a lot of moms have SUVs and vans but I have never been a big fan of those. Since I only have one baby, I told Sean that I was getting a good size sedan. No SUV nor van... I've always thought that driving in a big car was for tall girls. I'm short. I'm barely 5'2''. In my mind, a short woman like me can't see far ahead in a big, tall car like SUVs or vans. Anyway, when we went to a Nissan dealership (strangely enough, most of my favorite cars come from Nissan), we saw some "Muranos" there. Sean convinced me that I should get inside and check it out. I didn't want to but I thought there's no harm in trying! So I sat in the driver's seat and adjusted my seat with an automatic button (so cool!). The car was just so amazing! It's got a nav, heated leather seats, cruise control, sun roof (or moon roof, whatever you want to call it), etc. And the asking price was $23,000. Wow, for a pimped-up car like that, that is a good deal! Well, but unfortunately, right now, we can't even afford a $10,000 car. We can barely afford the car we have, ha ha! No, but really, who would've thought I was going to fall in love with a SUV? Sean thought it was funny. I told him that I wanted a car exactly like that in five years. I told him that should be my 33rd birthday gift. Until then, I will just have to settle with whatever I get. :-)
I want to be a soccer mom, driving this SUV.
The one I looked at looked exactly like this on the inside.
At 6:10 a.m., I wake up to a 
MOM -Umma in Korean- There is something about that word, don't you think? I think you appreciate your mom more and more as you get older. Whenever I am around Sean's family during holidays, I think about my mom and the things that we used to do together. My mom has always been proud of me - although I am not so sure if I have always been a daughter that she can be proud of but I try. When I was a teenager, I was sad because I thought she was the most miserable person on earth. And I always thought that it was my fault that she was misrable, sad, and unhappy. Well, time went on and we moved on. When I went and saw her with Sean and Matthew last year, she seemed to be doing whole lot better - She was no longer the miserable, sad, unhappy person I remembered. She laughed and joked around with her son-in-law whom she had never met in person before. I got her to laugh with her mouth open, her teeth showing - This was one of my biggest accomplishments in life. Now I have many pictures of mom smiling, proudly showing her beautiful teeth, not so self-conscious about the way she looks when she smiles. I was delighted that Sean and Matthew got along with her so well. Matthew never fussed with my mom. My mom would put him on her back and wrap him up and go outside for a long walk.
One day, they were out looking at beautiful flowers for an hour or so and I was never worried because I knew mom was taking good care of Matthew. I just wish that I lived closer to her so she and Matt can bond more. I try not to think too much about mom because it makes me homesick. But I know distance makes our hearts grow fonder - It is true for mom and me. I think we are closer than ever because we have been far apart for a while, now we appreciate the time we are together even more because of it - although I wish we could see each other way more often!
He walked through the pile of snow for two hours and arrived at home just in time to deliver me. Mom was only 18 years old when she gave birth to me. - But my parents always say I am a blessing to them. Well, but I should say they are a blessing to me.
